Exams coming and I have been slacking a lot lately....
I become bedphillic, grey's anatomy-addicted, always in low energy state....
Go away laziness.....
I need to study....
CONCENTRATE AND STUDY HARD.....
Birthday coming too...I'm going to be freaking 21.... OMG..What have I accomplished in the past 21 year? Looks like I'm going to spend my last few days as a 20 years old studying..
Haha...
Well that's for now. I have kungfu training tonight, excited.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
叶子
叶子（"蔷薇之恋"片尾曲）阿桑
作曲：陈晓娟 作词：陈晓娟 编曲：洪筠慧
叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的叶子
天堂 原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔
孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭 旅行 到处走走停停
也一个人看书 写信 自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
做功课时听到了这首歌,刚好描写了我的心情.
作曲：陈晓娟 作词：陈晓娟 编曲：洪筠慧
叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的叶子
天堂 原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘
当初怎么开始飞翔
孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭 旅行 到处走走停停
也一个人看书 写信 自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
做功课时听到了这首歌,刚好描写了我的心情.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
游子的辛酸
第一次离开家那么久,不知不觉就想起了家的温暖,怀念家乡的热情.
离乡背井是很多人的梦想,也包括我在内.
但在一个人生地不熟的异乡,有是受到的委屈及辛酸都得往内心吞下.
身为长子及想当一个堂堂正正的男子汉,便会不想把所受的委屈告诉给家人听,害怕父母操心.
但有时还是很想当个小孩子把心中不舒服的全发泄给父母亲,说了又但心他们过分操心便假装没事,硬硬撑下去.
在伦敦这漫长的三个月里经历了无数的酸甜苦辣,被最信任的人背叛及抛弃,就不知不觉掉入人生的最低潮,一个难以爬出的谷底.一直以来以为你最相信的人是可以永远地依靠,永远可以信任的.但事实并非如想象中那么的完美.
我真希望有个知己能够分享一切的酸甜苦辣,以让心中所承担的发泄出来.
离乡背井是很多人的梦想,也包括我在内.
但在一个人生地不熟的异乡,有是受到的委屈及辛酸都得往内心吞下.
身为长子及想当一个堂堂正正的男子汉,便会不想把所受的委屈告诉给家人听,害怕父母操心.
但有时还是很想当个小孩子把心中不舒服的全发泄给父母亲,说了又但心他们过分操心便假装没事,硬硬撑下去.
在伦敦这漫长的三个月里经历了无数的酸甜苦辣,被最信任的人背叛及抛弃,就不知不觉掉入人生的最低潮,一个难以爬出的谷底.一直以来以为你最相信的人是可以永远地依靠,永远可以信任的.但事实并非如想象中那么的完美.
我真希望有个知己能够分享一切的酸甜苦辣,以让心中所承担的发泄出来.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
An emo post
Birthday is something everyone looks forward to.
Birthday is a day where you are the king or queen of the kingdom.
Birthday is when all your best friends come to you to wish you a happy birthday.
Birthday is one freaking awesome day where you have your own birthday cake surrounded by wishes and gifts from all your friends.
That's what I used to think birthday means.
But well maybe it just don't apply to me though.
My 21st birthday will fall on my first day of exam. So I think I will treat myself to an expensive lunch after exam and that's all. I don't hope for anything because disappoinment haunts me everytime I hope for the best on this very special day or rather a day I used to value a lot.
I lost my interest and confidence in this day. I mean how many people in this world has their birthday forgotten by those they loved and valued a lot. How many people cried on their birthday because those arround them arent sensitive enough to take into consideration of this very special day.
What i believe now is celebrate it yourself, far from others, buy yourself something good, go shopping and have a luxurious meal. That's what I will stick to from now onwards because no high hope will not land you in extreme disappoinment.
I envy those around me where their birthday is celebrated majesticly by those who care for them. I cried every single time when I watched what others had did for them. It so touching because I will never be treated like that. That's when I lost confidence in celebrating birthday. Birthday is just an ordinary day in the year nothing more nothing less.
Well if you ask me whether I have memorable birthday before? Well twice I would say. And those 2 birthday are long time ago. I appreciated those who make it memorable. They are my 16th and 18th birthday. Now I have memorable birthday as well. Memorable as how pathetic they were.
For my 21st birthday, I would wish that I will never have any birthday anymore. That's what I wish for.
Birthday is a day where you are the king or queen of the kingdom.
Birthday is when all your best friends come to you to wish you a happy birthday.
Birthday is one freaking awesome day where you have your own birthday cake surrounded by wishes and gifts from all your friends.
That's what I used to think birthday means.
But well maybe it just don't apply to me though.
My 21st birthday will fall on my first day of exam. So I think I will treat myself to an expensive lunch after exam and that's all. I don't hope for anything because disappoinment haunts me everytime I hope for the best on this very special day or rather a day I used to value a lot.
I lost my interest and confidence in this day. I mean how many people in this world has their birthday forgotten by those they loved and valued a lot. How many people cried on their birthday because those arround them arent sensitive enough to take into consideration of this very special day.
What i believe now is celebrate it yourself, far from others, buy yourself something good, go shopping and have a luxurious meal. That's what I will stick to from now onwards because no high hope will not land you in extreme disappoinment.
I envy those around me where their birthday is celebrated majesticly by those who care for them. I cried every single time when I watched what others had did for them. It so touching because I will never be treated like that. That's when I lost confidence in celebrating birthday. Birthday is just an ordinary day in the year nothing more nothing less.
Well if you ask me whether I have memorable birthday before? Well twice I would say. And those 2 birthday are long time ago. I appreciated those who make it memorable. They are my 16th and 18th birthday. Now I have memorable birthday as well. Memorable as how pathetic they were.
For my 21st birthday, I would wish that I will never have any birthday anymore. That's what I wish for.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
My 1st kungfu grading
I have had my first kungfu grading on sunday 6th Dec...
For those who had not been following my blog. I have been learning shaolin kungfu at University of London Student Union centre and it has been more than 2 months.
The grading day didnt start very smoothly as my crazy neighbour brought lots of noisy high pitched girls and guys to his room for party until dont-know-wat-freaking-time after midnight. So I didnt have enough sleep and have to forced myself out of my comfortable warm bed to the cold hostile environment at 630am. ( I find myself very bedphilic recently) I bathe and tried to force myself to bite into the chocolate swiss roll and drank a cup of nestum but I'm running late.
Then I put on my coat brought my stuff after doing a final check on the stuff that I need to bring. I sprinted to the nearby tube station - King's Cross in dark as the sun had not risen yet although it's 5 minutes to 8am. King's Cross is the station that is mentioned in Harry Potter series. This is where they board the train at 3/4 platform to Hogwarts. I was told that there's actually a platform 3/4 but due to time restrain, I resisted the temptation. In this unfamiliar station, I topped up the oyster card and got onto the tube. The tube was fast and without knowing it, I reached my destination- London Bridge Station.
Walking out of the tube station, I noticed that it was drizzling and it is freaking cold. The worst thing is I dont really know the direction to the grading venue- Roland house (or is it Boland House). I had a map from sifu and tried to find my way. Luckily after several fail attempts which cost me 15 minutes, I saw a boy in a uniform with his father. With stalking, I managed to reach the place in time (actually was very early). We started doing warm up after changing into our uniform.
At that very moment, I noticed that the people who come for grading is really from different walk of life and different ages too. There're kids in merely 6 to 7 years old to old uncles and aunties. I was nervous. What if I failed? What if I humiliate myself in front of all those people watching.
Times wait for noone. And at last my turn. We were graded in groups of around 6-7. So we nervously did basic punch, shoulder punch, mid section punch, upright punch, consecutive side kick, front kick and some kungfu forms. I dint really know what I was doing as my heart was pounding fast. I just told myself "be calm and just sit low". (Sitting low for the horse stance). After few minutes of sweating and heart racing like crazy, I finished my part. I finished my grading.
I stayed back to watch the seniors for their grading. From white belt, which is mine, you can go up to yellow, green, blue, brown and belt. For each colour, there'll be 2 levels. The grading was intense and really exciting to watch, especially the sparring. For those who dont know what sparring is, it is like boxing combined with lots of kungfu techniques as well. Sparring is something I really scared of. I have very poor body eye coordination and I really dont want to get hurt. But nevertheless it was fun to watch. There was 2 nosebleed incident throughout the whole grading but the most interesting part was the grading of 2 second lvl brown belt.
From seniors sitting nearby, I heard that they commented that the 2 brown belt stance were quite weak and poor. The examiners were all shaking their hand during the whole process. As a result, for the sparring, the brown belt were paired up with 5 of the best blue belt students continuously non stop. The blue belts were amazing. They use all the energy beating up the brown belt despite the fact that, the brown belt were supposed to be superior over them. Maybe they were tired but that's not a good excuse to being kicked at the ass by your supposed-to-be juniors. One of the blue belt was superb. He jump kicked at the brown belt and he literally flew away due to the kick. The scene is just breathtaking.
There was a kid worth mentioning here as well. There was one girl (I guess in her 10-12 years old) grading for blue belt. There was lots of kids in yellow and green belt as well but they were not required for sparring. But she have to spar. She was paired up with black belt woman of her size as all the other blue belt were at least few head taller than her. But she was so amazing. She performed all the side kicks, all kinds of kicks and punches beautifully. Everyone was cheering for her. When she finished, I saw tears from her eyes. I guess sparring is really painful despite all those body armour and etc. The black belt was going soft on her as well as she was only a kid. But she did showed me a courage above her age and techniques far more superior than most.
Wow what a long post haha... I should definitely stop here and get some sleep. Anyway if everything ok, I will be a yellow belt by Thursday. Hehe
For those who had not been following my blog. I have been learning shaolin kungfu at University of London Student Union centre and it has been more than 2 months.
The grading day didnt start very smoothly as my crazy neighbour brought lots of noisy high pitched girls and guys to his room for party until dont-know-wat-freaking-time after midnight. So I didnt have enough sleep and have to forced myself out of my comfortable warm bed to the cold hostile environment at 630am. ( I find myself very bedphilic recently) I bathe and tried to force myself to bite into the chocolate swiss roll and drank a cup of nestum but I'm running late.
Then I put on my coat brought my stuff after doing a final check on the stuff that I need to bring. I sprinted to the nearby tube station - King's Cross in dark as the sun had not risen yet although it's 5 minutes to 8am. King's Cross is the station that is mentioned in Harry Potter series. This is where they board the train at 3/4 platform to Hogwarts. I was told that there's actually a platform 3/4 but due to time restrain, I resisted the temptation. In this unfamiliar station, I topped up the oyster card and got onto the tube. The tube was fast and without knowing it, I reached my destination- London Bridge Station.
Walking out of the tube station, I noticed that it was drizzling and it is freaking cold. The worst thing is I dont really know the direction to the grading venue- Roland house (or is it Boland House). I had a map from sifu and tried to find my way. Luckily after several fail attempts which cost me 15 minutes, I saw a boy in a uniform with his father. With stalking, I managed to reach the place in time (actually was very early). We started doing warm up after changing into our uniform.
At that very moment, I noticed that the people who come for grading is really from different walk of life and different ages too. There're kids in merely 6 to 7 years old to old uncles and aunties. I was nervous. What if I failed? What if I humiliate myself in front of all those people watching.
Times wait for noone. And at last my turn. We were graded in groups of around 6-7. So we nervously did basic punch, shoulder punch, mid section punch, upright punch, consecutive side kick, front kick and some kungfu forms. I dint really know what I was doing as my heart was pounding fast. I just told myself "be calm and just sit low". (Sitting low for the horse stance). After few minutes of sweating and heart racing like crazy, I finished my part. I finished my grading.
I stayed back to watch the seniors for their grading. From white belt, which is mine, you can go up to yellow, green, blue, brown and belt. For each colour, there'll be 2 levels. The grading was intense and really exciting to watch, especially the sparring. For those who dont know what sparring is, it is like boxing combined with lots of kungfu techniques as well. Sparring is something I really scared of. I have very poor body eye coordination and I really dont want to get hurt. But nevertheless it was fun to watch. There was 2 nosebleed incident throughout the whole grading but the most interesting part was the grading of 2 second lvl brown belt.
From seniors sitting nearby, I heard that they commented that the 2 brown belt stance were quite weak and poor. The examiners were all shaking their hand during the whole process. As a result, for the sparring, the brown belt were paired up with 5 of the best blue belt students continuously non stop. The blue belts were amazing. They use all the energy beating up the brown belt despite the fact that, the brown belt were supposed to be superior over them. Maybe they were tired but that's not a good excuse to being kicked at the ass by your supposed-to-be juniors. One of the blue belt was superb. He jump kicked at the brown belt and he literally flew away due to the kick. The scene is just breathtaking.
There was a kid worth mentioning here as well. There was one girl (I guess in her 10-12 years old) grading for blue belt. There was lots of kids in yellow and green belt as well but they were not required for sparring. But she have to spar. She was paired up with black belt woman of her size as all the other blue belt were at least few head taller than her. But she was so amazing. She performed all the side kicks, all kinds of kicks and punches beautifully. Everyone was cheering for her. When she finished, I saw tears from her eyes. I guess sparring is really painful despite all those body armour and etc. The black belt was going soft on her as well as she was only a kid. But she did showed me a courage above her age and techniques far more superior than most.
Wow what a long post haha... I should definitely stop here and get some sleep. Anyway if everything ok, I will be a yellow belt by Thursday. Hehe
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Officially locked....
Well finally....
Lets celebrate the "privatization" of my blog..
But wait till weekends, I will post some updates because I'm going to practise my guzheng tonight...So wont have time for blogging yet...
Lets celebrate the "privatization" of my blog..
But wait till weekends, I will post some updates because I'm going to practise my guzheng tonight...So wont have time for blogging yet...
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I promise sth new soon
Apart from being LAZY due to the cold weather which draws me to deep hibernation everyday, I'm quite busy with my kungfu training and also my guzheng lesson....
Well those are excuses for me being lazy....
I'm living an awesome life now despite the fact that I usually do stuff alone.
Well what to do? Life is always imperfect but it will be perfect from some point of view. So I decided to look on the bright side of the picture. For example, I got to learn guzheng from a true master in London because even in my wildest dream, I dint dream of learning guzheng in London especially in my first year. Lucky I guess.
FYI, my guzheng teacher is Mdm (I guess because she's married already) Zhu Xiao Meng朱小萌. She is a fantastic teacher whom I hope to learn lots from. As I dont have a guzheng in London, I'm forced to rent a small guzheng from the chinese community centre for 30 pounds a month. The guzheng was terrible as it's smaller than standard size, the sound cannot come out nicely especially the lower sound part. I wanted to buy a guzheng asap even turn to the resort that I would normally avoid, buying online. Buying musical instruments online is not a safe option as you cant feel the instruments, you cant hear the sound it produce. Upon hearing my dilemma, my teacher lend me her guzheng so that I can practice on it and offer to help me find a 2nd hand guzheng. The guzheng belongs to my teacher and the sound was superb. Even though she barely know me for just 1 month, she entrusted her guzheng to me.....
Well that's enough for now. You all will hear from me soon after I officially lock my blog....Cheers
Well those are excuses for me being lazy....
I'm living an awesome life now despite the fact that I usually do stuff alone.
Well what to do? Life is always imperfect but it will be perfect from some point of view. So I decided to look on the bright side of the picture. For example, I got to learn guzheng from a true master in London because even in my wildest dream, I dint dream of learning guzheng in London especially in my first year. Lucky I guess.
FYI, my guzheng teacher is Mdm (I guess because she's married already) Zhu Xiao Meng朱小萌. She is a fantastic teacher whom I hope to learn lots from. As I dont have a guzheng in London, I'm forced to rent a small guzheng from the chinese community centre for 30 pounds a month. The guzheng was terrible as it's smaller than standard size, the sound cannot come out nicely especially the lower sound part. I wanted to buy a guzheng asap even turn to the resort that I would normally avoid, buying online. Buying musical instruments online is not a safe option as you cant feel the instruments, you cant hear the sound it produce. Upon hearing my dilemma, my teacher lend me her guzheng so that I can practice on it and offer to help me find a 2nd hand guzheng. The guzheng belongs to my teacher and the sound was superb. Even though she barely know me for just 1 month, she entrusted her guzheng to me.....
Well that's enough for now. You all will hear from me soon after I officially lock my blog....Cheers
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